So earlier I posted about having regained 13 llbs. I did well in losing 7 of those llbs and found I was quite happy there at 10st 10llbs. I kept at that weight for quite some time... or so I thought! Every single day my digital scales said the same thing 10 10... I was happy that I had found my weight. I was able to eat healthily but not to worry too much about recording and weighing my food, I was managing my weight just fine! Then it struck me, can I really be the same weight every day! surely there would be some fluctuation and my clothes are a little tight! So I asked my husband to step on the scales, wouldnt you know it... 10 10!!! nooooooo!!! my scales were broken! stuck on 10 10. I could not bare the thought of how much I could have regained so it took a little while to pluck up the courage to go out and get a new set of scales. When I did, to my horror I was 11st 6llbs, a regain of 10llbs! I felt absolutley disgusted with myself. How could I let this happen again. I have gone back to recording everything in my fitness pal, monitoring my cals carbs and protein and with exercise netting no more than 1200 calories per day. I have lost 9llbs, one more to goal but 3 more would be good to have some kind of leighway. So what have I learned this time, on my second regain. I have learned that my weight needs constant monitoring, and that I have the control over it. If I could only turn back time 10 years and look at my weight on the scales and think, I am not having this I will lose it! then maybe I would never have got myself in this position in the first place. I realise that I will never have the kind of body that will be able to eat what I want, I will always have to watch what I eat and how much exercise I do. But what I do know now more than ever is that I can. It just takes a little will power.
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About 4 years ago I was in a queue in a shop with my niece who tried to give me a cuddle. She then quite loudly said, 'Auntie, you are so fat, I cant get my arms around you' I was so so embarrassed and hurt. But what she said was true, there was no avoiding this. That day I spent with my niece was an eye opener. We walked to the shops and back and then sat in the garden at my brothers house. I was too tired to play any games with her. I so longed to be able to run around with her. Well a couple of weeks ago we went for a weekend away to Torquay and we found a hill which together we run up and together we rolled down, over and over again. It was so much fun, I had so much energy and we laughed so much. I loved being able to play with her, especially when I think that if this journey had not happend for me I would have more than likely been in a wheelchair by now. I love been healthy and full of energy and I will see my beautiful little niece turn into a beautiful lady.
I'm really glad I ran across this blog today, thanks for all of your positive insight. I am considering this surgery and reading good feedback helps. Sometimes I read "I regret my sleeve 100%, I'm always hungry, etc" and it freaks me out because I don't want to have huge regrets. You seem happy. Your pictures and your list of goals met is very inspiring. Kristina
ReplyDeleteHi Kristina, thank you for your feedback. These are the reasons I have the blog. Its been nearly 3 years since I had mine done and I could not find much on the internet when I was considering the operation. If you would like more inspiration please join the group
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Its called achieving through sleeving and it has over 1400 members at a mixture of stages in the process.
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ReplyDeleteIt's my first time here and found your blog very interesting. You can be an inspiration to us. I had sleeve surgery last year, thanks to PlacidWay, my operation was very successful and maintaining my weight at 190pounds. But after holiday season i regained weight and planning to lose weight again. You will be serve as my inspiration, thanks for sharing.
ReplyDeleteI thank you for your comments however my blog is not here for free advertising. Any links to your websites unless personal will be removed. The only hospital and Doctor I will be seen to recommend is my own, Dr Van den Bossche of the Spire Hospital Southampton. http://www.spirehealthcare.com/southampton/our-facilities-treatments-and-consultants/our-consultants/mr-michael-van-den-bossche/
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http://jackylambert.blogspot.co.uk/2013/06/please-no-adverts.html
I've loved reading through your blog (I've just discovered it). I'm wondering how your progress/maintenance is now that you're a few years post op. As you mentioned in one of your early posts, there seems to be a lack of info from sleevers who are over the two year mark! How are you doing?
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Hi Allie. Thank you for the feedback. In early days there is so much going on you can write loads. Then when everything starts maintaining its not as easy to blog because there is not a lot of new info to give.
DeleteIt is an ongoing battle with the weight. Anyone who thinks they can have this surgery and will be thin forever are very much mistaken! I can pretty much eat what I want now, maybe not in such large portions but if I take my time I can finish it. I allow myself a buffer of 6llbs. If I go over that I work really hard to get them off. I don't live every moment in a diet which is how I do go up and down but I am more concious of my weight than I have ever been. I have had a bad couple of months, not with eating but with lack of exercise due to work commitments and have put on 7llbs more than my buffer. I am pleased to say that I have worked very hard over the last 2 weeks and have lost 6 of those 7. Just need to keep going to get back to bottom of buffer. I suppose I will always have a problem with weight but the difference now is how concious I am off it, how I recognise and deal with it. I have been through too much too allow it to just keep creeping back on. Its like anyone trying to llose weight, its not easy but with the right mind set you can do it, no matter which way you choose to do so.
So that was the weight part, now for life itself...
Really weird! I would like to say I still cant get used to the new me, but i'm not convinced its all me! I still feel like the same person but with a lot more energy and zest for life. I really believe people percieve me differently and having spent so much of my life being fat I just cant get my head around it. I still don't really recognise myself in the mirror or in photos and I try to be as bubbly as I have always been but some take my outgoing personality as being a flirt! I am trying to learn how to deal with this without changing too much, because I quite liked my personality and dont want to have to go into a shell because I have lost weight.. think I would rather be fat than have to hide away!
So weight is under control, its all the other stuff, the mental stuff that I am learning to deal with more now. My surgeon did warn me when I first met him that this would happen but I just let that go over my head. Didnt even remember him saying until I started noticing it.
All in all... I still made the best life decision I could ever have made. I do miss the enjoyment of food and the social aspect of food but hey, I can entertain myself with many more activities now.
My only regret... getting fat in the first place!
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ReplyDeleteThank you so much for posting your journey! I'm about to get the sleeve done and am feeling very nervous because it's all so overwhelming. Your blog was very helpful and made me feel much better. Congratulations on all of your success! I hope I find the same :)
Thank you so much for this blog, I am less than 2 months away from my surgery date, and I am finding so much great information from people who've been there done that and are now on that ongoing plane of maintaining and being aware. I have to admit when I first decided to change my PHI and wait the 12 months to have the surgery I thought wow I'll just get this done and move on with my life....but now I know that it's an ongoing journey that never really ends - its like being an addict, you go into recovery and you stay in recovery. There's no cure, just an ongoing awareness of what you're doing and how you're travelling. I have to learn to enjoy the journey rather than focus just on the destination! :) :)
ReplyDeleteI have started a blog of my own http://thelongweighhome.blogspot.com.au/ - its not as comprehensive as yours but its a work in progress - much like me! Thanks again!
Jacky thank you so much for sharing your journey. I've just read your whole blog in one go, it made for an engrossing read!! I'm in Australia, need to lose 50kg and am seriously considering the surgery, but what's holding me back is an incredible fear of complications. I have 2 little boys and the thought of me being that 1% patient who passes away during surgery or from complications afterwards is almost too much to bear. Of course I know I'm being very dramatic and silly but I just have to get over it!! I absolutely loved seeing all your photos, the transformation is really incredible!
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