I have just spent a week in a fabulous hotel with my partner Warren and his Mum and Dad in Lanzarote. I could not have wished for a better holiday. The weather was great, only one rain storm and cloudy day, the rest of the week were blue sky and between 20 and 25 degrees. I have achieved quite a lot in the last week. My first achievment was on the plane... I was able to do up my seat belt without an extender... I can't remember the last time I did that and it has been one of my main goals from the start of this. It really did bring a tear to my eye. Usually when I go on holiday I dont spend a lot of time at the pool as i am usually a bit embarassed in a swimming costume. This time I was in the pool a lot, I did aqua fit every day and took part in many more activities, I was dancing right in the centre of the complex for the club games and even went on stage at night to collect a certificate I had won during the day. They made me do the same stupid dance I had to do during the day to collect my bottle of bubbles. I would never have done that before.Food wise... going all inclusive was a really good choice. I did not have to give any explanations to anyone or order small portions, I could just take what i want from the buffet, make it look like an adult size meal by adding lots of lettuce and spreading it around and was able to leave what I want, pushing it all back up into a corner to make it look like i had eaten more than a few ounzes! I know before I went away I was not eating enough and it was still really hurting to eat. I have really moved on to the next stage and feel much happier with what I can eat. I kept active most of the time so did not worry if I had fattening food too much. However I did put on a pound in the week. (must have been the alcohol!!!) I am not upset though as I will lose that again over the next couple of days and Its been a long time since I only put on one pound whilst on holiday.
The best thing was that I felt good about myself... Ok I am still not a skinny chick in a bikini but I did not stand out for being too fat, I did not miss out on anything I wanted to do because I was incapable or not fit enough or too embarrassed! I dressed up and thought I looked good. This is such a good feeling and knowing its only going to get better is just fantastic!
